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I have a friendIt feels really good when you realise that a person you've known for a while has become a really good friend.
It's good when you can share a bit of their hapinness and also their sadness, their glories and their fears, their awesome feats and their misfortunate setbacks. And you can share all this with that person for one simple reason: because that one person trusts you. Because that person thinks you're worthy of hearing their stories and will even let you express your opinion and actually listen to it.
Being trustworthy is one of the things that brings me great joy in life, and it's my opinion that one can do few things that are better than that. But it is also very important that you feel that you can trust and share what's yours with that person. That's when things really come full circle.
Thankyou to all my really good friends for being themselves and having me along for the ride.
And to all the really good friends that I haven't seen or heard from in a while: I miss you!
Running on emptyIs it possible to run out of love? What happens when you give your love to someone for so long and things come to an end? I sometimes have this feeling that I've run out of love. All the people I meet arouse a certain interest in me, but I haven't felt that special feeling in a long time.
I really don't know what to do... Should I just sit around and wait or should I go out and search? And is it really fair to the other people I meet, to go out with them while I have this feeling lingering over my head?
I long to find the person that I will need as much as I need air to breathe but doing that seems to be a long and winding road indeed.
IQ required?Today someone said: "The solution to a problem is always in the last place you look." And I said: "That seems to come from the fact that we are sane people. Why would we keep looking in more places when we've already found the solution?" He didn't get it...
Right idea at the right timeHaving the right idea at the right time is probably the best method of living your life.
It can bring you wealth, if you think about doing something that no one has done before and that many people need. Like the guy who invented the little umbrellas that come in exotic drinks.
It can bring you health, if you think about going to the doctor when you're sick.
It can bring you love, if you think about reaching out to the right person at the right time.
However having the right idea at the right time certainly isn't easy... It's a lot easiear to have the wrong ideas at the wrong time, and believe me those come a lot more often, and it is also somewhat easier to have the right idea but at the wrong time.
Wrong ideas generally get you nowhere, still they may sometimes be useful to get you back on track once reality slaps you across the face for that awful piece of thinking you did before.
The right ideas at the wrong time aren't much better than wrong and ideas. Why? Well if you have a real
The hour of yellow lightsI actually haven't noticed if this happens in any other countries, but here in Portugal at a certain time, well into the night, all the trafic lights start blinking their yellow light.
It's the "non-stoping" hour.
It's better than that it's the "no-one-is-watching-and-no-one-really-cares-what-you-do-so-just-go-about-your-business" hour.
I've been walking a lot lately, and normaly when I go out at night I walk among the yellow blinking traffic lights when it's time to return home.
It is curious what you get to see sometimes.
Inebriated friends talking and laughin loudly, clinging to each other for just the right amount of balance to stay on their feet, not that falling down would hamper their merry spirits, but it would make them take longer to get to their destination.
Taxi drivers waiting in severe boredum for one more fair in the long night. They know there won't be many rides for them to make at this hour, but they certainly take confort in knowing that the few they do make will be
Trying to get organizedIt certainly isn't easy.
I've talked about this before but it is still one of the things that troubles me the most, the feeling, or should I say fact, that I do not have enough time to do everything I want.
I have a very wide range of activities I love to dive into and even when I'm on vacation from my job I cannot find time to do everything that I want.
There are of course things I must do even though I don't take any joy from them, like cleaning my house, doing the dishes, laundry, taking the car/motorcycle to the shop, organizing bills to pay... you know, the workings of everyday life.
It makes me wish I had a surrigate, or a clone... someone to do all these boring but inevitable little things one must do! That would leave me with just the good stuff, music, photography, reading, writing, riding my motorcycle, dating, being with my friends...
I know! I've just had a great idea! I WANT TO BE A KID AGAIN!
Oh wait... crap... I can't go back, can I?
That's why our parents keep telling u
WorriesIt's late and sleep has abandoned me once again. I sit here without the quivering of my eyelids which I normaly take as indication to hit the sack. I think about lots of stuff, but as of late thoughts about my job trouble me.
I try to measure the pros and cons of my livelyhood but it frustrates me. I get frustrated initialy because I see many more cons than the ones I imagined early on when I decided to take this road. And I get frustrated again whenever I try to explain those intricate problems my job creates to my friends and family and their reply is something of the sort "That's not even a job, that's just cool to do!"
Man that annoys me. I don't know how to tell these people anymore how my job keeps me from my family and friends, how it messes up relationships, how I think I should have had more fun in colledge but I didn't 'cause colledge for my job was a tad different, how I can't forget my job even when I'm not working 'cause there is always something I have to do, or study, or
LiesHave you ever been lied to? I mean if you've ever been in a situation that you know, from factual evidence, that the person in front of you is telling you a lie?
I witnessed one of these just the other day with a friend of mine (should I call him a friend?). It wasn't good but somehow he missed what I though was a clear facial expression from my part, that indicated I knew he was lying.
And the thing is it is a recurring situation, so he will keep lying about it and I'll continue to know he's lying...
Right now I'm just watching the show and wondering what he'll say when he figures out I know the truth. I'm also trying to decide wether I'll care enough to listen to his escuses when the time comes.
The bad in meIt's amazing how some people bring out the worst in you.
I think at some point everyone feels like that about someone.
And it's hideous when it happens because you end up doing stuff you could never imagine yourself doing.
The thing one must do is to identify those people and stay away from them as much as possible, otherwise bad things will happen and people, possibly the one that brings out the bad in you, will get hurt.
And even though you know that person has a nasty effect on you there is no wish to hurt them because it is not necessarily their fault. It's just the combination... It doesn't work, it's explosive in the worst possible sense!
Or am I the only one who feels this is true?
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