Right idea at the right timeHaving the right idea at the right time is probably the best method of living your life.
It can bring you wealth, if you think about doing something that no one has done before and that many people need. Like the guy who invented the little umbrellas that come in exotic drinks.
It can bring you health, if you think about going to the doctor when you're sick.
It can bring you love, if you think about reaching out to the right person at the right time.
However having the right idea at the right time certainly isn't easy... It's a lot easiear to have the wrong ideas at the wrong time, and believe me those come a lot more often, and it is also somewhat easier to have the right idea but at the wrong time.
Wrong ideas generally get you nowhere, still they may sometimes be useful to get you back on track once reality slaps you across the face for that awful piece of thinking you did before.
The right ideas at the wrong time aren't much better than wrong and ideas. Why? Well if you have a real
The hour of yellow lightsI actually haven't noticed if this happens in any other countries, but here in Portugal at a certain time, well into the night, all the trafic lights start blinking their yellow light.
It's the "non-stoping" hour.
It's better than that it's the "no-one-is-watching-and-no-one-really-cares-what-you-do-so-just-go-about-your-business" hour.
I've been walking a lot lately, and normaly when I go out at night I walk among the yellow blinking traffic lights when it's time to return home.
It is curious what you get to see sometimes.
Inebriated friends talking and laughin loudly, clinging to each other for just the right amount of balance to stay on their feet, not that falling down would hamper their merry spirits, but it would make them take longer to get to their destination.
Taxi drivers waiting in severe boredum for one more fair in the long night. They know there won't be many rides for them to make at this hour, but they certainly take confort in knowing that the few they do make will be
Trying to get organizedIt certainly isn't easy.
I've talked about this before but it is still one of the things that troubles me the most, the feeling, or should I say fact, that I do not have enough time to do everything I want.
I have a very wide range of activities I love to dive into and even when I'm on vacation from my job I cannot find time to do everything that I want.
There are of course things I must do even though I don't take any joy from them, like cleaning my house, doing the dishes, laundry, taking the car/motorcycle to the shop, organizing bills to pay... you know, the workings of everyday life.
It makes me wish I had a surrigate, or a clone... someone to do all these boring but inevitable little things one must do! That would leave me with just the good stuff, music, photography, reading, writing, riding my motorcycle, dating, being with my friends...
I know! I've just had a great idea! I WANT TO BE A KID AGAIN!
Oh wait... crap... I can't go back, can I?
That's why our parents keep telling u
WorriesIt's late and sleep has abandoned me once again. I sit here without the quivering of my eyelids which I normaly take as indication to hit the sack. I think about lots of stuff, but as of late thoughts about my job trouble me.
I try to measure the pros and cons of my livelyhood but it frustrates me. I get frustrated initialy because I see many more cons than the ones I imagined early on when I decided to take this road. And I get frustrated again whenever I try to explain those intricate problems my job creates to my friends and family and their reply is something of the sort "That's not even a job, that's just cool to do!"
Man that annoys me. I don't know how to tell these people anymore how my job keeps me from my family and friends, how it messes up relationships, how I think I should have had more fun in colledge but I didn't 'cause colledge for my job was a tad different, how I can't forget my job even when I'm not working 'cause there is always something I have to do, or study, or
LiesHave you ever been lied to? I mean if you've ever been in a situation that you know, from factual evidence, that the person in front of you is telling you a lie?
I witnessed one of these just the other day with a friend of mine (should I call him a friend?). It wasn't good but somehow he missed what I though was a clear facial expression from my part, that indicated I knew he was lying.
And the thing is it is a recurring situation, so he will keep lying about it and I'll continue to know he's lying...
Right now I'm just watching the show and wondering what he'll say when he figures out I know the truth. I'm also trying to decide wether I'll care enough to listen to his escuses when the time comes.
The bad in meIt's amazing how some people bring out the worst in you.
I think at some point everyone feels like that about someone.
And it's hideous when it happens because you end up doing stuff you could never imagine yourself doing.
The thing one must do is to identify those people and stay away from them as much as possible, otherwise bad things will happen and people, possibly the one that brings out the bad in you, will get hurt.
And even though you know that person has a nasty effect on you there is no wish to hurt them because it is not necessarily their fault. It's just the combination... It doesn't work, it's explosive in the worst possible sense!
Or am I the only one who feels this is true?
Mixed feelingsI feel lonely, I miss having a special someone. Yet I feel like hitting on every cute girl I see, because I had a special someone for so long that somehow I feel I missed out on something. I feel like an idiot because, in fact, when I had a special someone I was part of something larger, much harder to achieve than fortuitous dates with random cute girls.
I feel like I can't make up my mind about what I want, I feel I deserve more than what I have now but I am uncertain what more is exactly.
I feel like postponing any choice and yet by doing so I'm making a choice. I'm choosing to live in the now, for now, and I choose to enjoy the presence of those who choose to be here with me, knowing that the only certain thing is the uncertainty of what's to follow.
At least that's what I think I feel...
Logic in people's thoughtsSometimes it is near impossible.
I was asked by one person to omit that I was going out with another person.
This all came about when I was telling that first person my plans for the evening. I said something like "I'm going out with so and so, dinner and a movie" and the reply was "Why would you tell me that?" and I said "Why wouldn't I?"
What sense does that make? Why would you ask anyone to fool you? Are people so used to being lied to that they actually think it's best? I know I don't wanna be lied to!
Then I was told I wouldn't have to lie, I could just omit it.. What? In my opinion a conscious omission is the same as a lie. I can't do it, if people can't the truth then they shouldn't be around me.
Figuring out what you wantIt isn't easy. There are always so many good choices, so many pros and cons you have to be aware of. I've made choices and changed my mind 5 minutes later...
There is something scary about making a certain choice, I can't help but wonder about all the things I'll miss out on because I made that choice in particular and not another... It has happened to me before, missing out on stuff I mean. But then again I was getting something special that I wouldn't have gotten had I not made that choice. I guess if you keep putting off choices like that you'll be putting off life as well.
The fact is that some things are so clear that there is really no choice to make, but lately I haven't found that.